Happiness may write white but fulfillment writes a workout with your body in pieces on the highway. Gyms full of Frankensteinians squatting for ass.
Fulfillment writes transparent and I am under-trained, imposter-syndromatic as a millionaire recruits me for a predatory real estate team before I go to bed with the world’s only woman I want to wake up with.
There will be no art this way other than Tik Tok poetry—more likes than the world’s population on one-liners anyone wanted to hear. I want only to wake up, kiss the woman, foreclose on a property. Collateral and clean sheets cooked in calm, calm liquids.
This is what she and her liquids have told me:
We are a continuous search function needing no Enter key
We are a continuous search function needing no Enter key, our query field an eyelash in surface tension of a lake. Just wait for a fish to gulp us. Before a koi fish extends its jaw we continue as a blank curl, filtering, tasting as we go. We taste what we load.
The color of the eyelash dictates the color of the eyelash’s world—the world being spectrum, the eyelash a slit.
In the sag of human capital, intimacy accrues
By ever-expansion of “employee,” intimacy is trapped. Employee, an intelligent role, sources a person for calories, mindsight. It does this by attaching a hose, an eight-hour mouth. Identifying within mouthspan we become a siphoning.
“Employee” solves for itself by holding still and compressing. What new California apartment developments do to parking and breathable space, employee accomplishes with persons.
Network Drives keep our intimacy in-house
Pet names for compression—productivity, optimization—present as overwhelm.
Employers, overwhelming us, set up our intimate lives. (Barriers to intimacy lowest among co-overwhelmants.) By their keeping of our intimacy in-house we are retained.
If and when we resign, our intimacy saves to a folder
Both narrative and not. Under-the-mattress cash.
Why specialize
A specialist seeks expertise in order to feel special, “tries to understand” as an importance-grab.
I can only understand her to the extent I stand outside her. Embedded, there is euphonia, aroma, her lessening of others’ overwhelm, her enhancing that which pushes against overwhelm in others. Local bends and curves.
I present as an eyelash in the surface tension of correct
l can only taste the inputs until gulped. I am that limit.
Oh wow!! I don’t think I’ve ever read anything of this nature and oh goodness, was this goodness! Thank you, amazing talent. I could read a whole book in this style!
Wonderful piece, Jason. Your writing is so gripping in its elusiveness. Very enjoyable.
“”Employee” solves for itself by holding still and compressing. What new California apartment developments do to parking and breathable space, employee accomplishes with persons.” — so powerful!